grow up ............... from P

In hindsight I probably sounded like a 12 year old when I said it. In the midst of all the confusion surrounding my dad's being moved from ICU to "step down" to regular hospital care and now to a nursing/rehab facility, combined with the emotions and expectations regarding which of us kids are going to sit with him and attend to his needs (and a bit of sleep deprivation added into the mix for good measure), I let it slip. I said "I am tired of all this, I just want to get back on the boat and be gone." Childish, yes. But it was a true gut reaction. I have forgiven myself for saying it, and I am now getting ready to again "buck up" and go back to the hated nursing facility for a day of needles and bed pans. I feel nauseous just walking in there. But dad needs a lot of attention right now, and I need to remember my priorities.